The note I never thought I would write

I got married when I was nineteen and a half and after tying the knot I assumed that children would be the next step. I wasn’t in a hurry for children necessarily, but I did want something to baby, so in the mean time I got a dog instead. My ex and I didn’t last long together and despite a lack of birth control children never happened in that relationship. In my next relationship we had an “oops” that became a miscarriage. Despite the fact that relationship was on the rocks when the “oops” happened and the absolutely horrible timing of it all, there wasn’t anything I ever wanted more. After that relationship, I dated for a while and then met Kurt who after four months told me he didn’t want children. I stuck with him anyway. I got another dog, then a cat, and a parrot. It took six years of nagging the man before he finally broke down and then it took another year and a half to actually conceive our little pumpkin. It took so long to get to motherhood that I thought I’d never ever get a chance to leave a love note for Kurt outside the bedroom door of our daughter like the one I left today…

If you wake her I will kill you in your sleep!!!

Unfortunately she woke up AGAIN before he got home.

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5 thoughts on “The note I never thought I would write

  1. No kids of my own (as you know… and “yet”), but mygosh… flashbacks from when my brother and sister were babies… I can totally relate! I love that note. You might frame that and save it. Or put it in your Sophia Scrapbook.

  2. I went the pet route, but it was after I had my three kids and had my tubes tied. I’d get that “I want a baby” feeling and would go get a pet. At one time we had two dogs, three cats, a canary, 2 bunnies, an aquarium of fish, and a guinea pig. (Laugh.)

    I still get that feeling and currently we have a dog, a cockatiel, and an aquarium of fish. I want a guinea pig, but I just don’t know where we’d put it in this apartment. Never say never though! :)

  3. I said never to getting married….see how well that turned out :P

    I’m glad you got your little pumpkin. Child replacers are wonderful, but alas…the real thing rocks.

  4. LOL! I love your sign! Motherhood is wonderful and I’m happy you finally are able to experience it. We have two daughters and I’d give anything to have more. We are still trying and I pray everyday for at least a few more babies to nurture.